Hopeful Romantic

Why do people call it hopeless? The way people romanticizes about love, I mean. The love storytellers, chick-flick watchers, day-dreamers, fairy tale believers, those who patiently wait and pray for The One, those who always choose to love despite the pain, why are they called hopeless romantics?

I don’t know why people call it hopeless because what I see is hope. Hopeful lovers, hopeful romantics. That one day the one they’ve been waiting for will come. Who will pursue them consistently and passionately with authentic and genuine kindness and love, and they will pursue them in return.

Maybe one day,
Yes, one day.

And you know what, I can’t see hopelessness in there. All I can see is hope. Hope that they’ll continue to patiently wait. Hopeful that their story will beautifully bloom because they know that the one writes it is the one who made love. Hopeful for the man/woman who was molded by God for them.

I know sometimes waiting is hard and it hurts, but they chose to hold hope in romance and more importantly, to the one who made it.

Hope that she won’t give up on love.
Not yet, not ever.

I praise God for you Hopeful Romantic. And I am praying for you and for the person that God has prepared for you.

This is what I learned from regret

It was the fifth time my college Psychology professor told us that there are two kinds of regrets, (1) regrets from things you have done and said, and (2) things you have not done and have not said. And always, always the latter hurts the most and will haunt you for the rest of your life.

And this is the reason why I can’t just keep to myself how much I care and love the people in my circle. I always end up telling them. Every time. Randomly.

And you know what? It feels good to be vocal about your feelings. It’s good to let them know how much you care and love them. It’s good to remind them that even in this busy world, there will always be someone who remembers them. It’s good. It’s good…

But sometimes, it hurts, too. It hurts because oftentimes you get rejected, you’re taken for granted, you’re being laughed at for being clingy, and yes, you sound so weird. It hurts, but it’s good.

But no matter how hurtful it may seem, the fact that you were able to remind people of how much they are loved, that there will always be people who will believe in them, that they will always have someone whom they can lean on, makes everything so worth it.

I was raised by my parents to always express our love and care to everyone because we never know what will happen, we never know how things will turn out in the future. It may be too late for us to tell them that we care and love them. You’ll spend your whole life wondering what would have happened if you had the courage to let it out. Let it out or else you’ll stay hung up In your feelings forever.

I am hopeful to life, hopeful to people.
I don’t care how will they see me for being open about my love and care, I will continue to be vocal about it.

Because honestly, sometimes, it’s the “I’m here for you, always,” “You are prayed,” “Thank you for existing,” “You are loved,” are the words we need.

I don’t want to spend my years staying inside my own shell, protecting my own feelings, hiding everything. No. I want to be honest, open, and hopeful.

And I’ll start it by telling you, “I will be with you when you are at your highest, clapping my hands for you, and I will be with you with arms open when you feel like the world is against you. Yes, I will always be here for you because I care for you. Always have, always will.”

Emotions [Can Be] Are Beautiful, too

Being emotional is beautiful. Being able to feel things deeply is beautiful. It’s not being an attention seeker, it simply means you acknowledge every emotion handed to you by the universe. (Okay, I know a lot of you may disagree with me on this. And it’s okay. This is just my opinion). You were made by the greatest artist to feel everything without any intention of you being burdened. You were made to feel everything so that you can share with everyone the beauty of emotion. It’s not a sign of weakness, but it shows how brave you are, how courageous you are to receive every feeling with open hands. Sweetheart, I hope you consider this as a gift. Yes, a gift. A gift that is meant to be shared with everyone. A gift because you are able to empathize and sympathize with others on what they feel, and be a light-bearer during the dark days of their lives.

But we can’t deny the fact that sometimes these emotions are too much to handle. We become overwhelmed with everything that sometimes we just want to explode. I know, I have felt that too. And truth is, it sucks to feel everything. It sucks to be emotional. It’s tiring to be emotional. And through the years of dealing with different emotions that made my heart a home, this is what I realized, you have to let it out! Don’t imprison whatever you feel, because sooner, your heart will become crowded to the point that it becomes hard for you to breathe. Leave your door open, and welcome them with open arms, but when it’s the time to let them go, hold the door open for them. Let them go with open arms, too.

It takes courage to admit to ourselves what we’re feeling. And I hope and pray, we will have that courage to do it. Emotions are powerful, they can wreck and build you to be the best of who you are. Use it to your advantage, sweetheart.

Don’t be afraid to admit that you’re not okay, that you are in pain. Don’t be afraid to speak up about it. It’s okay to let other people know that you are not in your best condition. They are there for you not only during your glorious and brighter days but also they are there to hear you, to catch you when you feel like falling, to help you carry the baggage. It’s okay to be weak sometimes. It’s okay to ask for people’s company when you are not okay. Let them also see your rough edges. I know that some of you may not agree with me with this (again), but I encourage everyone to not shut down other people when they want to reach out.

And pray for it. Pray for everything that you are feeling.
Your emotions are not your enemies. Embrace them because you know what? Emotions can be your friends, too.

Know that when everything is so much to handle, He is in control.

After all, He’s the source of everything.

 

 

 

What I Have Discovered About Love

I am a firm believer of magic, fairytales, happy ever after, forever- a believer of love.
It may sound so childish to still believe in those things, but doesn’t we used to believe in them? To dream about our own love story or how the journey of our love life will unfold?

love love and everything about it.
It makes me happy seeing couples who hold hands while walking. I love hearing partners who say I love you to their love one. I never get tired of watching chick flicks movies no matter how predictable it is. I won’t stop listening to love songs. I’ll never get tired of crying every time I finished a romantic book because I still don’t want to let go of the story. I’ll never get tired of listening to my friends love stories no matter how childish and cliche it seems. I won’t stop watching wedding videos and listening to the couple’s wedding vows. Because I love it. I love how people can become soft and gentle when their hearts are full of love. I love everything about love.

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When I was a child I was excited to grow up to be able to know how it is to love someone. I was so eager to know more about it, to see more of its magic.

And throughout the years this is what I have discovered:

  1. You can fall in love multiple times.

I’ve fallen in love countless of times. I fall every time my father kisses my forehead, every reminder of my mother, and every sweet gesture of my brother. I fall in love with the sunrise and to how the light creeps into the darkness. I fall in love with how the sky flashes its feelings through its color. I fall in love every setting of the sun, of how it gives way for the moon to breathe. I fall in love with the scars carved in my being, they were a bittersweet and beautiful reminder of my past. I fall in love with the smell of the ground after the rain and the taste of my favorite coffee. I fall in love with every hug and kiss, smile and tears, laughter and frowns, “I love you/s” and “I miss you/s,” I share with different people in this world. I fall in love a thousand times in between moments and million times before. I may not able to remember when the first time was, but I knew it was also magical. You don’t only fall in love with people, you fall in love with every little thing that composes this world.

  1. Love hurts.

I’ve seen how love ruined people, of how it took away others lives; of how it broke many hearts; of how many lungs were intoxicated and lips were burned. I’ve seen people suffer because of it. Love hurts, and love heals. Through raging storms and wild winds, we forgot that love stayed as it is. Those times when we feel love left us, it was only just around the corner, looking at us, whispers- “I’m sorry.” And these are the times I choose to let love invade me because I know, it has nothing to do with my pain. It has always been the circumstances and the person involved. And I’m sorry I will never blame love for it. So, no matter how painful it brings, I will always choose to love in all possible ways. Love hurts… No, love is not supposed to hurt, it heals. I, too, have been hurt because of love. For all the tears, pain, and scars left by love, it doesn’t make me love it less. And every time love appears in front of me, I just can’t stop myself from falling for it.

  1. Sometimes, the love you give won’t be reciprocated, and that’s okay.

One of the things my parents taught me is to love fully and unapologetically. Sometimes people will fail to reciprocate the love you’re giving them and it hurts. So much. But, that’s not the very reason why you choose to love, right? You love them because you love them., and not because you are expecting something in return. Yes, we yearn to feel appreciated and loved, who doesn’t? I, too, longs for that. But, I was reminded of God’s love, that no matter how many times we reject His love, He still accepts and continues to love us more each passing day. I am not saying you have to stay in an unrequited love, but you have to accept that the person doesn’t love you the way you want to be loved. Acceptance is part of loving.

  1. Continue to love, anyway.

I just can see any other way to live, but to love everything, even the messiest part of love. Because the truth is, it’s love that makes this world more beautiful.

There maybe days that love seems too out of reach, but love never fails to come closer, again. It’s the most beautiful thing about it, it doesn’t leave. It stays. Always knocking at your door, and it’s up to you if you’ll welcome it.

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And I am looking forward to more love moments with people, with life, and with the universe. I will continue to love fully, loudly, boldly, and unafraid. I will always choose to love. Because when you love, you become kind, gentle, and soft.